4/30/2010

Mac Gaming. Finally.

You can tell how fucking insanely pumped I am by the fact Im running on 2 hours of sleep.

Also, finally getting some music done.

The_Network is playing with my friends in HiveSmasher and Drive-By Bukkake, as well as Gloomius Doom and The Binary Code. Go to it, its free and in lowell.

Once I see if my best friend Chris is like, way better at guitar after some practice, Ill see about recording some free demos. Ill post em here and all. Time to get some drums done.

4/28/2010

Rant 2

Another thing, whoever left a box of 5 starving, cold kittens in my store, fuck you. I hope a fischer cat mauls you to death next time you go out to get the paper.

My boss Ana told me to look on the bright side that they left them hear, not on the side of the road or in a sack in the river, but that didnt help. The kittens were fucking starving, scared, and cold.

To think this is going to happen a LOT in the coming months is fucking sickening.

If you cant take care of a fucking animal, go through proper channels to get it to a home, dont fucking let it die. Take responsibility instead of acting like a little bitch.

Long Rant Is Long

Ok, so a kid I know got shot and killed this week. My friends who were a couple houses away heard multiple gunshots.

I simply state that I beleived it might have been due to gang related issues, due to him, to my knowledge and to testimony to friends who knew him and his friends, had a gang or something.
People respond with absolute conviction that he was a saint and accidentally shot himself drunk while fooling around with a gun he thought wasnt loaded.

Shitstorm via facebook status comments ensues.

I never said the kid was a faggot, deserved to die, or was worthless cuz of gang shit, simply thats what my friends heard, since it was MULTIPLE shots they heard, and not one. I was retorted with "people make shit up for attention" excuse. Im pretty sure my friends who knew him wouldnt do that to drag his memory through the mud since they knew him too.

I never said he should have gotten it, yet was bombarded with excuses of how hes a saint and how he never did anything bad, nor did his family (his brother I went to school with is a diff story) All I said was that I believe it was that he got in a disagreement. No one can explain the multiple shots when I bring that up.

I never made out Teddy to be a saint when he ODed and died. I learned not to pop pills and mourned his loss. I mourn this young mans loss also, since he was just trying to have fun. Regardless of the circumstances resulting in his death, its sad.

What pisses me off is everyones steadfast belief that when someone dies, theyre a hero, martyr, saint, and can do no wrong. Im sure that was also the sentiment of the 3rd Reich when Hitler died also. Everyone is so caught up in their post-event emotions, they dont think rationally from a neutral point like I do. For example, Post 9/11, people were far too patriotic out of fear and misguided emotions. When Michael Jackson died, everyone was all mourning, and those who talked shit and said he was a pedo rapist or whatever instantly flipped sides and said he was a great person.

Just because someone dies doesnt mean you have to treat them like theyre a fucking messiah. Acting like that makes you look like a fucking sheep being herded around blindly. Its sad, yes, and he will be missed, and he had a lot going for him, but that doesnt mean all sins are obsolved. Ive done stupid shit a lot, and I expect my friends to call that shit out when I go down.

In summary, dont act like you fucking know everything and it's all perfect. Nothing's perfect, and just cuz someone states an opinion or fact doesnt mean you have the right to crucify them. Not everyone sees eye to eye all the time and gets along, but everyone should respect peoples opinions, regardless of how warped from your own they are.

Think for yourself and grow the fuck up.

4/23/2010

Mishuku

For those who dont know her, she's an artist who's forged her own style of art and unique take on it, using many different and new techniques, styles, and fashions.

She's making a graphic novel. I havent started a full sketch. That says something.
Time for my stupid ass to stop slacking off and do something. I have potential, but no motivation, and I cant get better and be a great artist if I dont practice. I mean, I been an art fan on DA of her and many other amazing artists for years, and they've always improved, except me.

Time to get on that shit. I wont slack off, I'll do my best, and fucking show people I can use my unique take on, everything really, to make a great comic.

New project

Haha, I used to have a million and one ideas for graphic novels/mangas, but never wanted to do the work cuz my stuff wasn't as good as the other shit you see in stores. But I realized I dont need to do fucking shit like everyone else, I do my own shit.

Also, I wanted to be a voice actor and get a dvd, but this new idea will combine them both.

Im still fleshing out the details and sketching stick drawings to lay the foundation, but I definately wanna get this shit going soon.

But yeah, other than that, had a fucking shitty week, then a better one. Blasting Periphery and Freaknik the soundtrack.

Updates about this thing soon.

4/16/2010

Too Fucking Long


So my friends bird, who I've known since the day we bought him, Philip Whil Wheaton, passed away yesterday. His kisses always hurt, and I remember the time he just started laughing for no reason for an hour, Im gonna miss him :[

Also, Peter Steele died. For real this time. I always wanted to do a TON cover, but I wasnt sure if anyone was into them, but seeing the reaction from my friends, now if I do do a cover, I'll look like some trendy scene fag :/

Anyway, nonstop work all weekend, and not in the mood to deal with the retarded shit of retarded people. Maybe getting a game this next week, to keep myself occupied.

Also, my trip to games day is kinda bust since everyone is going to my friends wedding. Id go too, but its in London, and my family cant even afford to send just me. So as much as Id love to go to his wedding, I wont be able to, and since my ride is going, Im stuck in NH. Kinda gay :/ Why have a wedding in another country when 3/4 the people attending cant afford to make the trip?

Oh well, something will get done, and hopefully they get all thier families to go.

4/09/2010

Doctors

Doctors today. If things dont go well, I may lose my job, insurance, everything.
No pressure.

Yoji Shinkawa

He's the lead concept artist for Metal Gear Solid. Other than the artists from Games Workshop who draw the awesome stuff in the codexes etc, this is the type of unique style of art I'd one day like to be able to pull off.

4/07/2010

Your War

Im not part of your war.
Neither are they.
We're getting caught in the crossfire.
Innocent people are being hurt because you love to kill.
Heads down. Eyes closed. We wont be silent.
2 sides fight, the 3rd gets the casualties.

And Im not talking about Iraq.

4/05/2010

So Long Social Life

This combined with Final Fantasy 13 and The Ultramarines Omnibus, I will be losing all contact with the outside world for a while.

4/04/2010

Deviant Art Premium

So I came on (Im always logged in) and saw this.^
Now, who would actually spend money on me to make me a premium member?
I have this until July 4th now. Then back to normal. Whoever did it, thanks.
I used to want one, but that was when I was sitting on, what I thought of, was a treasure trove of awesome sht to post. Now, I have maybe 9 short poems I could submit as 1 thing, and no art.

Thanks to whoever spent money on me, I'll try and use it and post more.

4/02/2010

So Much Oxygen I Forgot To Breathe

When I close my eyes, even to blink, your visage is there, haunting me.
I just wish to be left alone, yet you keep coming back.
I got you out of my heart and out of my life, but my head is another story.
Like the cosmonauts, nausea sets in upon descent.
I fall, the world sets fire around me.
Leave me be to the kindling and ashes I came from.